this is so real and i think one comforting thought is that we’re literally all living for the first time. no one knows how to do this shit fr. you’re doing great queen. i love you
I sympathize. I have been afraid of death for most of my life. Some of my earliest memories are about fear of death. It has gotten a lot better over time actually, maybe because familiarity is a strong fear antidote. I'm not sure. Getting kicked in the teeth by life a little (in a mild 21st century, American, middle class kind of way) also helped.
Mostly, I think you should read Gilead by Marilynne Robinson. I'll mail you a copy, if you want.
feel this very hard & always having to remind myself that this issue is a universal one. no one gets to live forever. i think to think we all can live a little vicariously through the decisions other people make differently than us- like for every day i choose to go on a walk over socializing or to have snack dinner over healthy meal, there’s someone else out there who is my reverse. and i think about how likely it is that she and i will get the same number of years even though we made different choices
“Why do I keep doing my skincare routine if I know I’m going to die?” - so true bestie
this is so real and i think one comforting thought is that we’re literally all living for the first time. no one knows how to do this shit fr. you’re doing great queen. i love you
I sympathize. I have been afraid of death for most of my life. Some of my earliest memories are about fear of death. It has gotten a lot better over time actually, maybe because familiarity is a strong fear antidote. I'm not sure. Getting kicked in the teeth by life a little (in a mild 21st century, American, middle class kind of way) also helped.
Mostly, I think you should read Gilead by Marilynne Robinson. I'll mail you a copy, if you want.
you put into words what i have been feeling the last 139 days since my mom passed. this is so real, and you are not alone in the sentiment, friend.
feel this very hard & always having to remind myself that this issue is a universal one. no one gets to live forever. i think to think we all can live a little vicariously through the decisions other people make differently than us- like for every day i choose to go on a walk over socializing or to have snack dinner over healthy meal, there’s someone else out there who is my reverse. and i think about how likely it is that she and i will get the same number of years even though we made different choices
Wonderfully raw. Thank you for writing